Prom

Sorry its been so long.... yeah im ashamed.. life moves pretty fast. junior year is almost over! and im freaking out!! so much is going to change!! especially the fact that i went to prom last night!! it really was a night i will remember for the rest of my life!! so much fun! i laughed sooo hard alot. and by the the end of the night i was drained!! Prom hangovers are real my friends!! real business. no jokes about it... but all worth it!!

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i feel insignificant.

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about everything.

no matter what i do.

i. will. never. be. good. enough.

pardon my french

Weeeeeenies! Utah county is Chuck Full of them!. ill just tell you a story that set me off today.

So today my grandma, grandpa, and great-grandma came up for Sunday dinner. And I feel bad but for most of the night i tried to avoid them for as long as possible because, bless her soul, but my great grandma every time we get together she always asks me one question that just makes me feel so stupid. and Im. Not. Kidding. EVERY time i see her. this question is asked. so it was dinnertime right? and i am sitting by great grandma and after we are done eating im just sitting there planning my escape route. and she turns and asks me the very question that turns a conversation awkward in .2 seconds.

"So Katie, a cute girl like you, dont you have a boyfriend yet?"

"uhhhhh... Haha (nervous laugh) nope. grandma. not yet

so by this time everyone has stopped eating and their all watching me.

"no grandma i don't"

"now your not lying to your grandma now are you??"

"no grandma i don't lie. i don't have a boyfriend. not even close"

"so your telling me that none of the boys up here have taken an interest to you, your so cute. i don't believe it"

in my head, i had Sooo many responses i wanted to say to this want to hear em?

-yup, thanks

-ya i know, im a loser, get over it

-see grandma up here in superficial county, no one gives you the time of day unless you are a toothpick with big boobs, .skanks. all of them

-nope grandma, boys are weenies, its fine i've accepted it

and of course i couldn't say this because, lets face it. the womens 88 years old. that would just be rude

instead i just grunted and got up. everyone was just staring at me and watched me as i left.

SO.AWKWARD.

URKLDNASLKDJFLUGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHUUUUUUUUGHHHHHHHHGGGGGGGUUUUUUU

WWWWWWWWWWEEEEEEEEEEEENNNNNNNNNNNIIIIIIIIIIIEEEEEEEEEESSSSS

boys are weenies,

guys are weenies,

bless those poor little girls hearts that wait their whole life to be 16 so they can drive, date, and go to high school.

news flash people!

thats a fat lie

the only reason being 16 is fun is so you can drive and TP those weenie boys

theres hope outside of Utah right?. not everyone is this superficial right?

mercy, get me a one way ticket to South Carolina please? that is the only place i know will be sane. (or so i hope)

because i cant stay in this weenie infested state any longer.

(there was also conversation about how i will have my junior prom this year) my grandpa was not excited about that.

MERCY!! don't you people understand.

3/4 of the people at Lone Peak High don't even go to Prom. why?

BECAUSE YOU ARE ALL WEENIES!

WEENIES.WEENIES.WEENIES.WEENIES.WEENIES.

and guess what is just the best ever??

i have to go back to that...that...place tomorrow.

can i just be 40 already? when my life is already figured out? and there are no weenies to be found. and i won't have to deal with any of them?!?!

Now half of me is really ashamed of the fact that i let this effect me as much as it has. and that im making a whole blog post about it. but the fact here is... i know Im not the only one thinking this.... right?